Its The Fun

December 24, 2009 its so back with the man i love, it so happen that we spent time talking to each other again after a very long time ago its after 4 mos. we talked to each other again, we shared lots of things that I never thought that we will again, I missed him so bad, and I want to LOL with him all over again, honestly, I'm just comfortable when I'm with Him I feel like its really me and not anyone else, I just hope that we may be like this having no communication for a long period time, but at least he will always come back to know what's going on. There will never be anyone else but Him, But everything change, its like he is not that open, he is not that brave enough to tell it to me directly, something that I really don't like, we shared storied of our lives but the part of something is not complete anymore with no specific reason, maybe its the long time that we haven't hear anything from each other, I thought I can no longer hear his voice anymore, I can no longer talk to him just the way it was before, but I'll just keep on praying that I'll be the one who will take care of him for the rest of his life, that I'll be the one to be there for him till his ever last breath, I'll just keep on praying that I'll be the who'll be the one he needs the most, I'll just keep on praying that someday I'll be his better half, taking care of him whenever he is sick and be there whenever he is lonely or down, I dream of him so much that someday I'll be one of his family, I love him that's all i know, I know and this much is true that this love of mine will always be a never ending one, true love that i feel, and i know that its real, this feeling i feel is not just a feeling that only last just for now but its a feeling that stands out in the middle of the road saying this love is not just giving up, but its love that is really irreplaceable. I Love You Jeimuel De Jesus Silvestre, always and forever my love.

December 25, 2009 a reunion and a very day for us everybody because its our brother's birthday, we spare time with our family and never forget to go to church and talk to God just for short period of time to thank Him for such a wonderful blessings and happenings he allow us to happen, we may not be that good person at all but at least God never leave us whenever we need him the most. We spent our Christmas with our very own Brgy. Lozano at Philam homes, auntie Melba who always cook for us a fine dining that we love to eat, we sing a song as a part of our parteey! we shared a lot of things, and we shared gifts, we love the very day with them and I thank God for having them! that's all.

Swimming With My Beybs :) December 21, 2009

Its A day of fun with my friends and I really enjoyed the day with them, we shared lots of stories and of course laugh out loud even though we're just 5 celebrated the day. HAHA. It so damn crazy! They made me so drunk that I can't even remember what I am doing, haha. I never thought that we'll have that great fun happened that day, haha. we even had a pictorial wearing our two piece whatever thing, we eat a lot, haha, we walk on a very long road to reach our destination, we shared a lot of memories. around 4pm we started to pack our things then suddenly i talked to Mr. Maarte Jeimuel Silvestre, I really Missed Him so bad, I still love him no matter what happen and so on, well, its back. But everything is different already. Toott! I love them, and I really miss the LOL when I'm with them. :(

There's never a right time to say Goodbye :)

Well, Saying goodbye is just saying it, but still its not the right time to say Goodbye to someone who really mean to you, your whole entity as he is the biggest part of your life. Well, I thought you already forget about me, Your here again, I'm so glad that you still remember me after all. I'm so happy that I thought you won't greet me anymore, but even though its late or lots of alibi's you are saying just don't matter anymore, everything is okay and I don't presume anyone's word for my perception on you. Thank You You made me so astonishingly happy with just a simple message and greeting from you. Thank You because you're still there. I just missed you so bad, Sigh. I have done a lot of things lately that made me so awkward when I realized that you're still there. I Miss You and everything is okay, no need for explanation at all, Its your presence that I am thankful. Don't Worry You're still the one I love so much, You never lost your part. You still have it, despite of everything, You'll Always be the last one who will leave my heart, assurance that till the last breath of mine, you still have the part of my heart, my love for you will always be undying, I will Love you always, no matter what happen, don't worry whoever are they come, my love for you will never be erase, You are still my Only Love. You will always be the love of my life, I could not ask for more, and I Thank God for everything. I'm not afraid to die anymore, for what Aristotle's Philosophy says: Happiness is the End of Life. But still i prefer to take good care of you so much, I will never allow anybody to hurt neither cause you pain. I am just here, I will never leave you. I Love You Always and Forever

Jeimuel D.J. Silvestre.

I Love You Goodbye

Sigh. Alright, Another day of Missing Him, I never thought that i haven't moved on yet, but it so damn crazy, why am i still loving him this much, even though everything was already wrecked and can never be the same as the way it used to before, its hard and its really helpless and painful, our friendship and promise is already gone, No Jeimuel anymore, No sweet talks and No greetings just the way it was before, No "Hey kita tayo.", No "Yung Promise mo ha." anymore, yes, its really hard. We've been there all the way, we become bestfriends and even closer to each other so much that I thought never we will. I so crazy loved him and i can't help not to assume for all the times that we've been there.But I better keep on going, I'm stranded over here, waiting for nothing, waiting for someone who will never come back anymore, it hurts that he didn't remember to greet me for my birthday, that i thought he would, I am so nothing to him anymore, its helpless, it hurts and painful, where are you now?.. how about the promise that we'll see each other all over again?.. Its all gone?.. That's the last time I hear your voice, that i hear anything from, the last time we talked to each other, the last time you called me, the last hug I received from you, the last kiss you gave me, the last smile, the last approach, the last time we are together 4months ago. I Miss You, I solely do, but I have nothing to do about it, we're now living in our separate lives, I'm sorry If i gave you lots of problem and sometimes I am someone who were just there hearing nothing at all. I Miss the times that you said that you're already contented with me, that you don't need anyone because I'm already here, But why are you not here anymore?.. Is there someone who changed you're mind already, Is there someone who owns you're heart already?.. I Miss You, I don't know if I can already say goodbye, i don't know if how am I supposed to let go for something i thought I owned, Its hanging, and sometimes I don't know how to face it off. Shall I say that everything is not mine anymore, that everything is just nothing to you?.. You're already gone, I am nothing to you and It so happen that You already forget about me. Shall I say Goodbye, But Before I say Goodbye, I wanna Say, I LOVE YOU, I Love You Very Much, You'll Always be the Very Part of Me, The Most Important Part Of Me, The biggest space in My heart.

♥Jeimuel De Jesus Silvestre :'(

I'll Be the Greatest Fan Of Your Life..

Happiest Birthday Ever!

December 17, 2009, The Happiest birthday ever, my day is such a wonderful day for me, lots of people greet me except him. still, I'm so happy to be with my friends and my family. I'm so thankful that God gave me such a wonderful and successful birthday ever, well at least its not a crying birthday anymore. For the past years, I celebrated my birthday crying and I never been happy as well, Thank God it didn't happen again. Well, I should be a good girl now, Its really hard but its a challenge for me. I need to become a Dean's Lister to make them appreciate everything and be proud of me, that even though I'm like this, I have A brain, I am Smart. Well, As my day started yesterday, my Friends greet me that I never thought they wil, Lunch time, I spent my afternoon with my crush Mark Justin Versoza, HAHA. I had a lot of fun spending time with that person, we went to church and eat merienda, our parting is such a good timing. because while I was riding in the jeepney, I saw my friends going to our house, I am so amuse that I thought they still have class until 5:30, Well, i am so happy with them, they are such a good and kind friend, they'll always be the best treasure to me, I am Happy that they are complete, my beybs, Klarizza Santos with Trish, Mara Villaruel, Bless Lappay with Nicko his boyfriend, Patricia Domingo with his boyfriend Ralph, Alyssa Reyes, Dianne Rosales, Tinay Go, Alfred Nicolas and Arnold Ejipto, I had a lot of fun with this creature, they gave me a gift, a condom, letch creatures! haha. and Trish gave me a Hello Kitty and My Melody stuff toy, with my beybs gift to me an umbrella for in case of Ondoy again I'll have a better umbrella, so, i won't go to Mara's House with wet hair on my face and wet clothes walking along the road. Remorseful Ondoy ever. HAHA. They ate a lot and thank God they did, we shared a lot of stories that happened in our daily living, they asked about Mark, WHATEVER! We're just friends! there's NO something with us, and that will never happen. We had a draw lots for our Christmas Party on Monday, our venue is in Wack-Wack Royal Mansion rooftop. Swimming time. Yea! I'm so Excited to be with them again. i love those creatures so much. After they gone our house, My Ninang Leitz came with My cousins Giannina and Dannica Cabangon, I so miss them so much. We shared a lot of things with each other likewise our academe stuffs, and then suddenly my Tito Lex and Tita Rizza came also, and so I am happy that they are all present on my very day. Thank You Lord for having them around. Thank You for such a wonderful birthday with those people whom I spent with. I love them so much. Before my day end that I thought Khiel Rivera had forgotten He greeted me before my birthday end, Mr. V.I.P who always want to be the last. HAHA, I really thought he forgot my birthday, I even texted him that I am "Tampo" because he didn't greet me. HAHA. Well, at least he remembered to greet me. Sigh. Even though Jeimuel Silvestre didn't greet me that I thought He will, I'm still happy. Sigh, I never thought that he won't greet me at all, for the very long time we spend with each other, lots of memories we shared to each other, its now gone, its time to forget about him now, life has to move on, set my heart free from assuming, and be happy with my life now.

Well--that's all i can say, I'm done with my blog. Thank You for such a successful and happiest birthday ever. I Love Love You guys.

♥♥ CAMIE ♥♥
Maria Carmela Altuna Cortez