" a martyr love "

* a martyr love. *

there is such thing with thee.
but i can't barely reacognize.
your pushing me so far.
betraying me and fooling me without a doubt.

in me, i just what to eschew beyond this.
im standing beyond this grievous incidence
accused of so many crimes
crimes of yours; that you blamed me.

questions answerable.
and yet the questions of mine?
no indeed answer.
and its for me to sought for it.

but then, i dont know how to start.
everyday, i grasp with the broken idea
an idea smash of my mind.
that there is no courage in this avenge.

to think about all things.
all those sorrows of serendipity i owe.
through all those broken silence within.
there is a heart breaking stone imagery.

i've lost along the way
for the reason, your hurting me inside and out.
with your valor words and immortality.
i've lost the faith that i have for you.

and now whatever it is.
i still have to forgive and forget you.
i dont know, after all?
its very risky to think.

the vagueness of light.
becomes clearer and clearer everyday.
and now i know the answer why?
i still love you no matter things may lead.